today earli in the morning, bout 9.30am, i got a call from ah bii..
"wei, jien ar.. today u free? wana go mid valley wif jq?...."
lol.. gou li la.. so earli ask me to wake up, juz asking wana go? haha..
but i finali oso woke up to prepare la.. juz to accompany jq to go thr.. but i wonder y izit jq wan to follow ah bii to mid valley besides ah bii was walking wif her college's frenz? but of coz got tym oso la.. haha..
v reached thr, & look for the parking slot for bout 30mins in zone c.. v saw a slot wif no car, but the road was blocked.. wat the.. then v left, find the parking in the gardens' parking..
erm..i tink i was enuf old ady.. coz i cant stand walking around, juz in 2hours sumthg.. mayb its coz of im lacking of practice to shop ady.. i like long time din go to shopping mall, juz simply walk wif frens.. recently juz went to shopping mall for movies, then back home.. juz it.. haha..
the stage was set wif the theme of chrismas
bout 2pm, v all looked for a restraunt to hav our lunch.. the restraunt called Delicious...
the tissue paper & the decoration of the restraunt
the price are reli 'wao.....'.. i hav my 1st try to drink machiato.. lol.. but its not mine la..
erm.. then me ,jq & ck, were walking around wif no motive.. coz the gardens, mid valley, both places v had walked finish, coz of window shopped.. haha..
after all, v got to return home on bout 5sumthg.. it was reli tired for me.. i fell to sleep on 4am, & 9.30am was woke up by ah bii.. haha.. reached home, changed my clothes, then i fell to sleep, i meant took my nap, for 1hour.. sleepy & tired man...
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Thursday, December 17, 2009; 11:04 PM
today went to Sakae Sushi for breakfast.. but actuali its not a breakfast for me, coz i was forced to eat 1 & haf dumplings before i left my home.. lee jian came to fetch me to suet yin hse & then v depart from thr.. i sat in cheng way's car, & he left.. leaving suet yin, ken nie & wei lin to sit lee jian's car.. i was like 'hahaha' in cheng way's car coz of his tis move..
v had our chit chat at Sakae Sushi.. i saw yee theng n her fren, & my secondary skul's juniors, in Sakae Sushi.. & tat suet yin make a joke again.. oh ya.. tat lee jian & cheng way dun like to eat sushi but they stil ate.. haha.. v were discussing whr to go the next.. they said wan to go for sing k.. after the neway sing k session, v returned to home at bout 7 sumthg..
erm.. today spent bout rm39, for the sakae sushi(my meal & the tax which i had paid), sing k cost, & the parking fee..
its my mum's birthday today.. i hope she will be happy always(wont be sad even if v siblings were fighting), be healthy always..
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009; 11:46 PM
one week as a babies sitter...
6th dec
when i woke up in the morning (its actually is the noon, but for me is morning.. haha...), my mum told me that my grandma & my auntie will come to stay in my hse for 1week.. its a normal thing coz every year end holidays they will come to kl for a short vocation like tat.. but tis time is diff coz my cousin bro & sis will not follow.. since my auntie is coming, tat mean the 2 babies oso will coming coz my auntie was take caring them..
they arrived in the night time & as usual for babies, they go to a new place will feel abit afraid.. so the babies are like damn quiet.. after awhile, the elder baby are like run & play around in my hse.. until the midnight, bout 12 or 1am, they oni wan to sleep.. the elder 1, haiz, was refuse to sleep, & me n my sis all like hav to force him to sleep, off the light while watching tv, close the room's door, & finally, he was fell to sleep..
7th dec
early in the morning, its juz 7 or 8something, i was woke up by the noise that the 2 babies made.... i know that in the following days i will be wake up so early, coz of the babies.. haiz..
the elder baby, who is the 1 more naughty, play with the things all he can get in my house.. climb up n down in my hse.. i was feeling like want to slap on her face to stop him.. wtf...
8th dec
my auntie bought a plaything for the elder baby, a gasing with lights & sound.. my mum say he want to buy it & holiding it, refuse to go, so my auntie bought it for him.. but the plaything is not suit for a child below 3years i think.. the toy is juz live for a few hours, as his toy, eventually.. the light was stil cant light up, but the sound was gone.. its juz a waste to buy him the toy..
v close all the door of the rooms, so that can prevent the babies to go in, but the elder baby again, open the door, go in the rooms, & looks for the things to play.. omg... then v scare him, when he was in the room, v quickly close the door.. but its juz got the effect for juz awhile, maybe juz few minutes, he go & open the door again..
9th dec
today me & my sis can run away from staying at home, look after the babies.. v went to watch 'Twilight-New Moon' at leisure mall.. my auntie & grandma & the babies went to my uncle hse for whole day, night time v all will have dinner thr..
the movie are quite ok for me la.. juz the ending again, want u to continue watch the next coming episode.. its juz normal for those series movies.. after the movie, v walk around oni return to home to take bath n fetch my mum to my uncle hse..
when v reach thr, v know that the elder baby was fell down from the staircase, thr was some wound on his face.. its was his 'reward' for climbing the side of the staircase.. its not that i'm cold blooded but juz he is reli naughty until not scare of ppl's scolding..
10th dec
he was playing around with those switches, keep on & off it, even watching the tv, he go to off the switch.. i was felt like slap him again.. tis feeling had continue for tis few days.. he want to watch his cartoons, then let him watch, thought of he will sit stil to watch it.. but juz a few minutes, he was playing around again, especially he go to play the dvd machine... wtf...
night time v all went out had our dinner with uncle again.. the kids cant sit stil & running again..ask him to sit stil he stil wan to run.. so my eager to slap, the feeling was come again.. my auntie, his grandma, ady busy to feeding the small baby & he stil move here move thr.. haiz.. after tat v all went to jusco cheras selatan for a walk.. the naughty 1 again did somthing that make me wana slap him.. wtf...
11th dec
morning time get wake up by my elder cousin sis.. she wan to go aquarium at klcc with her nephew.. i dun wan to go.. but finally, my mum ask me to go too.. i was feel 'y me?'.. haiz... refuse to go is bcoz i dun wan to take care the babies thr, & cousins who close to me are not along too.. haiz..
the entrance fee i tink was not worth that price la.. rm28 for adult with mycard, rm18 for senior adult.. but below 3years kids were free la.. luckily i no nid to pay for it.. haha.. i saw some butterfly's specimen thr.. i wondering y they put those insects specimen here.. insects are not aqua life wat.. haha.. but when saw the butterflies specimen, tink of my college friend, who scare of butterfly.. haha..
then night time again.. my elder cousin sis brought them to go sunway lagoon thr, for a walk.. thr was decorated with lights coz of chrismas was near in the corner.. & v all din follow, juz the adults, i mean those parents level's adults... haha... & i know tat, even use the toe to tink, oso know tat thr will b something happened, coz of the damn damn naughty kids..
12th dec
today my grandma they all went back to ipoh dy.. i was feel like 'hurrays'.. haha.. finally i can away from the disturbing kids.. haha.. i noticed tat, 1 of my old old comics, get tear... wtf again.. eesh...
night time v all, i mean my frens, had a belated birthday celebration.. haha.. its ah bii & jq 's bday.. v went to MILWAUKEE... & cym's bf oso join us.. but i din talk to him la.. haha.. erm.. in the middle of the party, i juz duno y, my mood was down, i mean like not in mood for celebrating.. become sit 1 side, dunwan join ppl to chit chat.. reli duno y.. mayb its juz feel sien i think.. on 11pm, v all were return to home, coz of the cinderela ah bii, cant stay ourside until so late.. then my fren who fetch me, sy, vivien hav to fetch cym's bf back to pj oni can fetch us.. so i juz take it as 'you ceh hou'...
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Monday, December 14, 2009; 3:19 PM
当月不再出现于夜，
天空不再下着白雪，
森林不再拥有绿树；
当凤不再与凰为伴，
鸳鸯不再一起嬉戏，
蝴蝶不再双对飞舞；
当垫不再衬托杯子，
筷子不再是一对的，
刀叉不再同时使用；
当所有成堆的一切，
只剩下一个，
或许，
孤单也就并不可怕....
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009; 1:48 PM
its a result from a test in facebook..
damn long til cant read finish..
but i quite agreed til the part i read...
水瓶座
幾乎每個水瓶座的心底都有著一段刻骨銘心人間記憶，一個永遠無法忘記的背影。 那也許只是極其短暫的兩情相悅，只是一種單戀，或只是一種只存在於虛幻空間。 一切看起來是那麼平靜，那麼和諧。 沒有驚天動地，沒有海誓山盟，沒有花前月下，沒有浪漫，沒有誓言，沒有溫度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永無燃點。 水瓶座不容易喜歡上一個人。有人說水瓶座對伴侶的要求太高，其實並非這樣，水瓶座注重的是感覺。只是那麼輕描淡寫的一眼，那個人已經吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，從此目光便無法轉移。 用一秒鐘愛上一個人，然後再付出一生去忘記，水瓶座就是這樣的試驗品。 但幾乎所有的水瓶都會否認在自己的身上發生一見鍾情，因為一向自視清高，承認愛上一個人這鍾事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。 更多的時候是因為，連自己都沒發現已經愛上。水瓶座很多時候對於感情反應非常遲鈍，遲鈍到每次都是最後的知情者。有時容易出現弄不清自己的感覺，不清楚自己想做什麼，覺得迷惘。 在對方沒有非常明確地表示感情時會退怯，覺得愛情是兩廂情願，不想勉強對方。 顯得很被動，忽冷忽熱，猶豫不決，極其矛盾。在沒有完全確定前，決不輕易付出感情，因為怕失去。也許是缺乏安全感，也許是對自己的保護，也可以算作是一種自私。 一般水瓶座的好朋友都是經過很長世間的考察的，不僅僅是幾年，而是十幾年。一旦被水瓶座當作好朋友的，會赴湯蹈火掏心掏肺。 在公車上，街邊，商場，水瓶老是認錯人。在茫茫人海中，始終在尋找一個熟悉的身影，直到產生幻覺。 這一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因為突然發現自己幾近瘋狂的愛上一個人，失去了理智，失去了自我。這種突如其來的感覺，很恐懼，很無助。 水瓶座不喜歡這種感覺，因為不知該如何面對。要讓水瓶座主動去追逐，是件異常困難的事，在水瓶座的世界裡無法承受拒絕，就是這麼脆弱，無論表面上看來是多麼的堅強。 水瓶座在人前總是一幅無憂無慮沒心沒肝的樣子，不想別人看見自己的悲傷，那樣會有不安全的感覺，總是在無人的地方暗自落淚。 算了，還是放在心裡吧。既不用尷尬的表白然後遭到拒絕，又不會相愛容易相處難的慘烈分手。這樣很好，沒人看出來，不至於太沒面子。可以繼續貌似瀟灑。 但是，不同了。儘管水瓶座裝著多麼不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是對方說的每句話都從耳朵進去，沒見出來。對方提的任何過分的要求，水瓶座統統照單全收精心盡力，決對不會有半個不字。完全成為一個愛情的奴隸，臉上還裝酷無表情，整個死要面子活受罪。 這種情況下，如果對方使點陰謀詭計，刻意疏遠避而不見或是視而不見，電話不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶會給整瘋了，開始會想是什麼自己地方做錯了，說錯話了，然後拉下面子主動討好試探。不用多，碰壁兩次，水瓶座就會有自知之明了，不會再去想是為什麼會這樣，也不想知道了。心裡會想，原來是對方討厭自己，不想見到自己。明白之後，就是絕對的安靜了。 這還沒完，過了一段日子。對方如果突然又改變態度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎問也不問，慇勤依舊，完全沒有尊嚴可談。只要能和對方開心的在一起，過去不重要，未來也不重要，面子不重要，金錢不重要，時間不重要，自己也不重要。 天平失衡，感情重重的壓在心底，自己卻飄在了半空。太在乎對方，迷失了自我，幸福也變得虛無。 自己都不愛，誰還會珍惜。 水瓶座一旦付出，便是徹底，不可收回。 感情投入的越多越是傷的重。 最擅長的是難為自己。不想對方難過，只好讓自己難過。總是認為自己有超乎尋常的承受力，把自己想得太堅強，而把別人想得太脆弱。不知道，受傷的其實是自己，只是不知道如何表現出來。 愛，這個字對水瓶座來說，太沉重珍貴了，無法用語言詮釋。一旦說出口，猶如遠古的文物，被發掘出土暴露於空氣中，變得面目全非，失去本來的價值。 所以，不輕易說。 只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗盡，只因執著，便落得傷痕纍纍。那段感情如強酸腐蝕著那顆麻木的心，穿了一個洞，再也無法彌補。時間是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛邊漸漸撫平，不再擱人。每當寒風吹過，猶聞隱約淒涼的蕭蕭聲，似輓歌。 只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，於是狠狠將自己摔碎，拒絕熔化拼湊。因為怕熔了記憶，怕熔了那個遠遠的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。 之後，水瓶座依然談笑風生，依然開朗豁達，繼續著一段接一段的新感情，重複著一切，因為無法承受寂寞。 人們都說水瓶花心，見一個愛一個，水瓶座會哈哈一笑，說"哪有？冤啊！"。其實心裡在滴著血，臉上卻得笑的燦爛，安慰自己"我是誰啊！哪會那麼弱呢！" 有人說水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以為了不起。可是誰又瞭解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一個，且不具修改性。除了那個人，其他所有自動歸為一種程序。 因為無法虛偽，所以甜言蜜語都吝嗇給予。因為天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因為沒有勇氣，所以眼睜睜放手真愛無能為力。 當看到一個瓶子在瘋狂地快樂或悲傷時，請千萬不要被迷惑，水瓶總是不由自主地交錯操縱著快樂與悲傷。其實並不像看到的那麼快樂，同樣的，也不像看到的那麼悲傷。只是悲傷時，喜歡帶上快樂的面具，而當水瓶快樂時，悲傷又不肯輕易放過。 只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看見眼底那一縷似有似無的哀傷，才能明白是什麼讓水瓶如此的義無反顧，是什麼讓水瓶變得如此忽冷忽熱捉摸不定，才能體會水瓶的堅強只是竭力掩飾的脆弱。 星相上說，水瓶座往往不被所愛的人珍惜。我想，是為什麼呢？也許答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不願承認而已。 水瓶座除了需要一個深愛自己包容一切的人以外，還需要一個心理醫生。
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Sunday, November 29, 2009; 2:12 AM
朋友们..
最近没什么好写的...
不只是因为没用脑，
还是因为没事发生呢？
假期就呆在家,
无所事事的过...
嗯...
有人配对了..
哈哈..
我想该祝贺她吧...
恭喜啦..
虽然她不会看到...
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; 1:02 AM
today is the last day for tis sem..
which mean the 1st sem for my a level was finished..
time is reli passed so fast,
until its juz like does not exist in tis world..
so,
2009 will be finish soon oso..
erm..
today went to skul as normal friday,
which reach thr on 7sthg am,
& my class start on 12pm..
got few hours to waste..
when i moving to the library,
i saw winnie..
she ask me to accompany her to go citc..
so i went thr for facebook awhile..
after tat,
i go to library to return my expired borrowed book..
then go to canteen to wait for jessica to hav lunch..
when v having pure math tutorial,
all of us are like ady in the holidays mood,
kip on chit-chating..
then v take a photo wif our leng lui tutor-- miss evelyn...
& i ponteng my last lesson--bio,
coz want to go back earlier..
then tyo say wan to hug ppl since its last day..
sound funny..
haha...
then hav a short tea time at mcd..
frens..
i oso will miss u all coz of the damn long holidays..
c u in the cuming sem...
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Friday, November 20, 2009; 11:50 PM
